Just Another Week at the Office

I didn’t take any photos again this week, so these are just random photos taken over the past couple of months. One is just Brady Hearn’s sweet face as he poses for a picture for his mama. The other two are of a bush turkey we frequently see in the park across the street from the house, and of me at the office. I trust you can tell which is which.

Australia takes very seriously the concept of holidays. Apparently much of the construction industry takes a month off around Christmas and New Year’s Day. They use the word “breakup” here much more broadly than we do, to mean the end of pretty much anything, and it’s common to have a party to celebrate the breakup. So we had three breakup parties this past week, one for each of our three main regions, for our member builders to celebrate the end of the year’s construction season. We’d work at the office until about 2pm, then head off to the Sunshine coast beach one day, the Gold Coast beach another, and a park on the banks of the Brisbane river the third day, to enjoy cold drinks, prawns (shrimp), chips and nuts with our Trade Alliance members and suppliers until 6:30pm or so. That’s how I spent Thursday, November 23, which would have been Thanksgiving if we had been in the United States.

They don’t celebrate Thanksgiving as a holiday here, and it’s kind of weird experience. The bush turkey roams the park, completely oblivious to the fact that he’s delicious. This may have been the first time in our lives that we haven’t spent Thanksgiving Day with extended family, eating Turkey, forcing down a bite of canned cranberry sauce, and watching parades and football on TV. And of course, the day after Thanksgiving is when we always put up our Christmas decorations and it was officially the Christmas season. There are just no clues like Thanksgiving and cold weather to clue you in that Christmas is just around the corner. Karen and Emmy fixed us a delicious traditional Thanksgiving dinner Friday night, so between that and three straight days of eating shrimp on the beach, it’s hard to complain.

Karen has started substituting at a nearby school for mentally and physically disabled adolescent students. She got scratched and punched and kicked by a mentally retarded autistic 13-year-old girl on the first day. Karen was perfectly in her element. It’s her ideal job. She’s a strange and wonderful woman. Meanwhile, Kaylah just started working at the same store that Charlotte works at. Six people in our three-car household have jobs, so that should slightly ease the transportation challenges.

I preached last Sunday, and the messages I preach are always mostly to myself, so it was helpful to me, at least. Tomorrow, Roland’s mother and I will visit another Nazarene church on our tour. We’re having fun.

Thoughts on Who We Are and Why We're Here

Neither Karen nor I took any photos this week, so I’ll just toss in one that Jake took. He’s never built anything or taken wood shop class in school before, but it’s one of his classes here. The school year here coincides with the calendar year, so he just got into the class for the last few weeks of the year. Nevertheless, he is deeply motivated to make good grades in all his classes because he elicited from me a promise that I would dye my hair pink and take him to the beach one day if he gets all A’s and B’s on his report card at the end of the year. Also, he’s leaning toward the idea of a career in the construction industry anyway, so he’s pretty proud of the end table he made in shop class, that he just brought home this week. It’s very nice, and for a first effort it’s brilliant.

The other picture is one from a few weeks ago, that just didn’t make it into the blog, but is representative of the kinds of meals Emmy prepares every night. This night was Chinese stir fry and lemon meringue pie – both homemade from scratch, of course.

Mainly what’s been on my mind this week, though, has been the sermon I preached this morning in our worship service. We moved here to help start a new church, and at the moment we’re just kind of preparing our own hearts before we begin looking for a sound system, a regular meeting place, and money for a proper marketing campaign for a launch service.

For me, preparing our hearts has revolved around Hebrews 11 a lot lately. That chapter is kind of the Hall of Fame of spiritual superheroes from the Bible. It talks about people who through faith “conquered kingdoms… obtained what was promised”, saw the dead raised and so forth. We want to conquer kingdoms here. We want to experience the power of God for great, glorious victories like those guys. We want a great church where lots of people experience the transforming grace of God, a place where love and joy and peace and healing and freedom and intimacy are commonplace.

But I noticed that the list of superheroes flows without a break from those who experienced victory to those who experienced only defeat, who were martyred, persecuted, tortured, destitute. And the whole list, winners and losers alike are commended in the same way, for the same faith. The faith for which they were commended was not fidelity, the faithful discharge of their duty; it was faith simply in the sense of reliance or trust. They knew unwaveringly in every circumstance that God is love and he’s on their side, and they are precious to him. It says on the basis of that faith alone, not because of whether they achieved great things, but only on the basis of their unshakable confidence in his love for them, that he “is not ashamed to be called their God.”

I learned this week that the word translated “called” means literally “surnamed”. God is so proud to be identified with us when we really know who he is, that he adopts as his own last name the fact that he is related to us. And he invites us, like the conquerors and martyrs alike, to be like him -- shameless.

Beaches, Unicycles and Music

This past Sunday after church we all went to the beach. The kids enjoyed it their way and I enjoyed it my way. My Sunday afternoon nap yields to no man’s worldly pleasures. And, okay, I know I’m overselling Australia as paradise, but I laid there under a warm, clear sky for 2 hours without sunblock and didn’t burn. AND, Charlotte’s hair is longer and thicker after 9 or 10 weeks in Brisbane than she’s ever been able to get it in Texas. Karen insists her hair is thicker, too. I don’t understand how that can be but it’s obvious.

Meanwhile, Jake and Jon are trying to learn to ride a unicycle that Jon’s pretty cousin Tahlia has mastered. I think they’re both up to about 2 seconds upright, now, but a clever photographer has managed to capture those moments.

Our intention is to plant a new church in Brisbane in 2007. That will require securing an adequate meeting place and sound board. Emmy has secured every Sunday off from Starbucks as a condition of working for them. Since she’s the primary worship leader, that was a necessary hurdle that has now been overcome. Until we have the meeting place, though, we’re settling for worship services every other Sunday morning in Roland’s parents’ living room (“lounge room” to Australians). On alternate Sundays we’ve mostly just been lounging around enjoying the time off and hoping the rapture doesn’t come on an off Sunday.

I’ve been meaning ever since we got here to spend the off Sundays visiting Nazarene churches in the area on my own, but that involves looking up the list of churches on one website, then trying to get service times from their websites if they have them, then printing out the map to get there, and I just haven’t gotten around to it. This week, however, Roland’s mother has agreed to pick me up and go with me to one of the Brisbane Nazarene churches. I’m looking forward to that.

In this entire major city only one station plays country music and none at all play the Mills Brothers or “Homespun Songs of the Confederate States of America”. As more and more of our boxes get unpacked, I now have about half of my music CD’s available to me again. Karen was hoping to convince me to put them all in storage here, but as I write this I’m listening to Ray Price singing “Funny How Time Slips Away” behind closed doors where no one else can hear – which is how they strongly prefer it.

Guns, Hills and Rain

One of the mild frustrations of trying to communicate the beauty of this place is that photos don’t easily capture three dimensions. The whole area is very hilly, almost mountainous, but the camera tends to flatten it all out. The picture of the houses in this week’s blog entry gives you some sense of the hills and valleys. The other two are just pictures Karen and Emmy took of each other in the car sometime in the past week or so. Emmy starts a new job in a few days as a shift supervisor with Starbucks in a nearby mall. In the meantime, our shipping container has finally arrived and she and Karen have been busy all week unpacking and arranging while Roland and I have been at work. Australia apparently frowns on anything remotely resembling a weapon. They’re not only holding our two rifles and a pair of brass knuckles and a metal throwing star thingy that the boys had, they’re even holding a paintball gun and an airsoft gun in their customs ARMORY! No more soft rubber sponge ball massacres in this country, boy howdy. Apparently, they don’t take it personally, though, and Wesley may be allowed to take it all back to the states with him in January.

We’re settling into a comfortable routine now. Roland and I work from 8-5 Monday through Friday, come home and eat whatever feast Emmy has prepared, and watch an hour of TV. Thursday night is “Family Night”, during which the Hearns retreat to one end of the house to do something together while the Mercers at the other end of the house usually play a board game together. This Friday night the kids all went to see a Hearn cousin in an apparently very clever, funny school play while the adults had a very nice dinner at a little out-of-the-way Swiss restaurant. There we were, an Australian couple and a Texas couple seated at one outdoor table and a half-dozen European college students at the next table, all being waited on by the Swiss lady who owns the restaurant along with her husband.

Saturdays I do whatever paperwork or chores or projects need to be done and get my weekly blog entry written. Saturday nights we all sit around together and watch a rented DVD and eat snack foods. This week we were going to go to the beach but a much needed rain has finally come. It’s supposed to last a week. Rain forests apparently require actual rain, and lots of it, and they haven’t had much in recent years, so this is apparently fairly important. If it lets up, we’ll go to the beach after church tomorrow. If not, we’ll have a house full of unhappy kids. We miss the folks back home, but this is really nice.

Wierd Things

One of this week’s pictures is of a rainwater tank. A lot of homes have them to collect rainwater for household use. When you live in a rainforest, that’s apparently normally a dependable water supply. Of course, it’s properly filtered and all that. One of the pictures is of a wooden lizard carved apparently out of the log it’s sitting on. It’s in a park we walked through this morning. The other picture is of a real lizard that we also saw on this morning’s walk. It was one of at least a half-dozen we saw, in fact. The woods are full of several varieties of giant, 2-foot-long lizards. To make matters worse, they have surprisingly long legs which they rise up on to run, and they run very fast. Frankly, when they’re running they remind me for all the world of those veloceraptors that chase the good guys around the kitchen near the end of Jurassic Park. I got as close as I dared, in hopes that he’d run across the picture so I could get a profile shot of him running, but I didn’t really get very close, just on the off chance that he’d run toward me instead of away from me. I don’t think he could have done anything to me if he’d caught me, but I’m pretty sure he’d have caught me.

I’m discovering that in learning the language here, you can’t just discern a general principle and then just guess from there; you have to memorize each individual pronunciation. There are differences where neither the U.S. nor the Australian position could be defended; they’re both just completely arbitrary. We pronounce “tourniquet” “turn-a-kett”. They pronounce it “torn-a-kay”. That’s probably closer to the proper French way to say that originally French word. On the other hand, they pronounce “fillet” “fill-ett” whereas we pronounce it “fill-ay”, so in that case we’re probably closer to the original French.

My one big pet peeve here is with grocery carts. I know I’m weird but I’ve always loved grocery shopping. Until now. Grocery carts in the U.S. aren’t the easiest things to steer and I wouldn’t have thought you could make them worse, but Australian grocers have turned them into an insidious instrument of torture. Each of the four wheels turns independently, 360 degrees, freely. You go through a store and you see men and women alike throwing their whole body into trying to keep their cart from wandering off sideways. No wonder they call a cart a buggy. The only wonder is how they’ve managed not to produce an entire nation of frustrated, irritable, angst-ridden, borderline psychotic grocery shoppers. Of course they have a slower, more relaxed pace of life! They have to, to make up for the emotional and physical devastation of grocery shopping.

I just got back from the store, by the way.

Boyhood Adventures and More Food

Last Saturday the kids rode horses to a swimming hole. The dads took the non-riders to join them. Roland introduced them to the joys of taking a horse into deep enough water that it’s actually swimming rather than wading. I introduced them to the joys of a rope swing. There were moments when we were pretty sure we were egging them on to levels of adventure that would have concerned their mothers, but they had a great time.

Roland and Emmy and Karen and I sit out on the patio or at a Starbucks with a cup of hot tea and enjoy the cool evenings and congratulate ourselves on actually getting to enjoy this time together to which we all so looked forward for so long. It’s good.

I’m still this weird little poverty-stricken Arkansas kid thrilled and fascinated by grocery stores stocked with exotic foods. Today I went grocery shopping with the women. On the one hand, they apparently have a fairly extensive Greek population in Australia, so the shelves were loaded with varieties of olives and feta cheese and yogurt. Also, crustaceans are apparently quite plentiful in Brisbane Bay, so the seafood section has a wide variety of prawns (shrimp) and other shellfish, and even more than one variety of oyster.

On the other hand, after extensive searching, I must sadly announce that there is not a pinto bean to be found anywhere in this modern, thriving metropolis. I’ve found something that looks close, called a Bortillo bean, but according to Wikipedia, it’s not a pinto. They have almost no dry beans at all, and the canned beans are either navy beans or kidney beans, and not much even of that. Where I come from, that’s like a city where no one sells bread or milk. And outside an oriental market, nothing here is spicy. Salsas and other foods that here declare themselves to be fiery hot will contain half of one percent jalepeno. Nothing reaches beyond what a Texan would call medium.

Still, it’s hard to complain when we haven’t had the same main course twice in the past seven weeks, except for two Saturday nights that we had hot dogs and maybe three Saturday nights that we had pizza. Think of that – 50 days and 47 main courses.

We visited a new mall today, or rather, one that has just opened a new section that makes it 3 times its former size. It includes three supermarkets as well as smaller stores selling only breads or meats or fruits and vegetables. Every food place was giving away free samples, so at 5pm with no meal served since breakfast, I’m still full. Somehow, magically, I still only weigh 158 pounds, which is about 73 kilograms, I think.

What can I say? God is good.

Flora, Food and Folks

The first picture this week is of me at the Vegemite section of a local grocery store. Vegemite comes in at least four sizes, including the large jar I’m holding, and a convenient squeeze tube. The top shelf on the right side of the picture is of competing brands. One is just a straight Vegemite clone called MightyMite. One is called Promite, which is kind of Training Vegemite for beginners. It’s a little less salty and has just a hint of sweetness added. The fourth variation is called Marmite. It’s a British product and is twice as salty as Vegemite. For any stray reader who has never heard of it, Vegemite was invented in Australia, is manufactured here, and mostly consumed here. It’s a thick, dark brown, very salty, yeasty tasting spread that is eaten on bread by practically all Australians.

The other two pictures are of my daughter Charlotte with Roland's daughter Kaylah, and a cool-looking Australian tree that Karen saw on her daily walk one day this week.

It’s very cool living in a place where any drive takes you in and out and back and forth between a typical, if very hilly, modern city, and tropical rainforest featuring signs warning motorists not to run over the kangaroos and koalas. One sees such things here in those stray, undeveloped patches of a growing city where flat, cultivated fields would be seen around Dallas.

To paraphrase George Bernard Shaw, Texas and Queensland are two states divided by a common language. Here, a cookie is called a biscuit, which is shortened to bikky as breakfast is shortened to brekky and afternoon is shortened to arvo. They do the same with people’s names, so Brett is Bretty and Dean is Deano. I’m learning on my job to talk to builders on the phone, but it’s a challenge between the facts that I don’t have a construction background and that they are very reliant on Australian slang. Jake says the kids at school are fascinated by his accent and by the fact that their accent sounds as funny to him as his does to them. Like most kids their age anywhere, they’ve never lived in another country and it has never occurred to them that we all have accents, including them. Jake said their two dominant images of Texas are the movie “The Texas Chainsaw Massacre” and of a gun in every household. Jake told them it’s actually 8 guns in every household but his home only has two guns because his dad doesn’t believe in them.

I love that boy.

Another Week in Paradise

This week’s pictures are of Karen and Emmy relaxing together on the veranda (as we apparently call patios and porches in Australia), Roland watching his home team, the Brisbane Broncos, win the Grand Final in Rugby League, and a picture of Roland and me with a dear old friend of Roland’s named Brendan Kelly. Brendan was a private school principal who attended the church Roland pastored at the time in Maryborough, Australia. They used to share a daily early morning prayer and jogging time. He counts Brendan as one of his closest friends, and one who most enthusiastically shared Roland’s understanding of grace and vision for the church. By a remarkable and possibly miraculous chain of events, Brendan has suddenly become the senior pastor of a church in Toowumba, a couple of hours from here, that has a Sunday morning attendance of 1,200 people. Roland and I visited Brendan’s church this past Sunday and had a great visit with him and his wife over lunch afterwards.

Life is good. Karen takes long walks in the park every day, surrounded by parrots, giant lizards and exotic flowers. Jake starts work today at a store that sells what he’s convinced are the clothes the cool kids wear. Charlotte’s working, enjoying the Hearn kids and keeping up with her U.S. friends on her laptop PC.

I wake up rested at 6:15, enjoy a cup of tea on the veranda and go to work at an office surrounded by raucous kookaburras making it sound like a Tarzan movie. At 10:00 or 10:30, we take a 30-minute break for morning tea and a light snack. We get home from work at about 5:30 and the house is filled with the laughter of Mercer and Hearn kids, aged 11-18, thoroughly enjoying each other’s company. August was the best month ever for my employer, Trade Alliance Group, and I expect the same will be true of September when the numbers are in. I’m starting to learn the job, so I’m feeling a little more secure on that front. It would be nice to be rich. It would be nice to be a part of a big church that we started. It would be nice to be 30 instead of 50 years old. But I’m preaching tomorrow so I’ve been thinking a lot this week about finding the love and joy and peace of God in the middle of the ordinary frustrations, limitations, grief, hope, failure and successes of ordinary daily life. And I am finding them.

Life is good.

Life in the Slow Lane

We now officially have a car. We paid $3,750 for a white 1994 6-cylinder Ford Futura Classic with 170,000 km on it, which is about 105,000 miles. I’ve included a photo of it.

For some reason, I just find it terribly entertaining to see people fall asleep in odd places or positions, so I’ve also included another sleep-related photo, this time of Kaylah and Jake asleep on the couch. TV obviously wasn’t very exciting that night. The other picture is of part of our Sunday morning church crowd from this past Sunday morning, enjoying morning tea on the veranda before the service. Brad Hearn heard me say I loved the slower pace of life in Brisbane. He responded that if I think the pace is slow in Brisbane, it comes to a complete, screeching halt where he lives, 8 hours into the interior of the country.

The photo that didn’t get taken is always the best, of course. Karen goes for a walk in the wooded park across the street from the house every day. Yesterday she saw a wallaby (basically a small species of kangaroo-type animal) bounding through the park ahead of her. Unfortunately, she hasn’t yet learned to use the camera function of her cell phone, which she had with her, so we’ll just have to take her word for it.

I’ve found one slight flaw in paradise. Although visually, the bird population here is just stunning, with lorikeets, cockatoos and kookaburras as common as crows or sparrows are in Dallas, not one of them can sing a note. It’s cool in that it sounds like a jungle, but it would be nice if some of them could whistle a tune. I’m obviously being picky. The weather continues to be perfect every day, with temperatures in the 70’s interrupted only occasionally be a brief, light rain.

And we continue to eat like kings. If every Australian eats like Emmy cooks, I don’t know why they don’t all weigh 300 pounds. Last night’s home-cooked-from-scratch dinner was salmon steaks, scalloped potatoes, asparagus with hollandaise sauce and chunks of sweet potato and pumpkin. For dessert we had pavlova, which is a crisp meringue filled with all kinds of fresh fruit, and then ice cream over that.

I came to make a living and start a church, but I stay for the food.

The Other Brad

These photos are of the bouquet of Australian flowers I bought Karen for her birthday; of Jacob pretending to be outraged at wearing a school uniform for the first time; and of Karen Mercer and Kaylah and Tylah Hearn, all of whom have birthdays between the 12^th and 17^th of September.

Jacob seems to have made the adjustment well. According to Karen two giggling girls accompanied him to the car when she picked him up at the end of his first day at school. Then he announced that he wanted to get to school early the next morning because “my friends” would be playing basketball. Charlotte seems to be enjoying her job well enough, but at the end of her first week she still doesn’t know for sure exactly what she’s earning because she’s too intimidated by the boss to ask.

Karen failed her driving test on the second attempt, but came closer than the first try, so hopefully the third time is charm. And finally, we bought a car today which we’ll pick up on Monday.

We finally got to meet Roland’s brother Brad for the first time this week. He and his family were in town for a medical procedure on their 14-year-old daughter Kamilla, who has a heart defect which requires periodic attention. This visit went well medically. Brad and his wife and kids are a sweet family. The children enjoy playing with each other and Brad and Linda laugh easily. It’s been a nice visit.

Brad is a mechanic so he very graciously helped us find a good cheap used car online and then went to the dealership with us and checked it out, drove it around, and gave it a clean bill of health. That was very helpful. As difficult as buying a used car is anyway, it’s vastly more difficult when you struggle with the accent, the jargon, and a totally alien set of procedures and forms. He made it stress free.

I’ve just managed this week to start feeling like I’m becoming useful in the office, finding things that I can do on my own that free up other people and generate a little income for the business.

So, that’s our week. Next week I’ll try to have more exotic Australia photos and adventures to recount.

Real Life Begins

The first picture on the left is of the view from my office window. The office is on the edge of Brisbane. The next picture is of the birthday breakfast Emmy and Charlotte prepared for Karen’s 50^th birthday, which was on the 15^th of September, 2006.

The last picture is of Emmy and Karen, who fell asleep watching television one night this week. An awful lot of Australian television is American stuff, usually a season or two behind. The rest is probably evenly divided between British and Australian shows. Then you’ve got one channel that just has 30-minute newscasts in the various languages of this part of the globe: Mandarin, Cantonese, Indonesian, Indian, etc. The best show on the air, though, is an Australian-produced improv comedy show in which they throw one guy with no script into a setting where the other actors are scripted and he has to ad lib his part. It’s frequently hysterical. It’s called “Thank God You’re Here” because that’s always the first line spoken by a scripted actor to the unscripted person when he or she enters the scene.

Charlotte got a full-time job this week at a store called Bargain City. Jake got enrolled in Aspley High School. They both start on Monday, the 18^th of September. We’re still doing paperwork to get the financing taken care of for Charlotte to attend Queensland University of Technology as a psychology major when their next semester starts in February.

Karen failed her first attempt at the drivers test this week and will try again Monday. I’m letting her be the guinea pig. I’ll try after she succeeds. She also got a cell phone this week. So all in all, this week we began to approach the feeling that we’re settling in and really living here, rather than just visiting.

Little Things

It’s the little daily things more than the big spectacles that make us aware that we’re in another land. Communication isn’t a problem in normal, extended conversation. If I don’t understand one little word or phrase, it doesn’t matter or I can figure it out from the context. It’s the brief encounters that stump me, though. I was buying some little thing at the grocery store yesterday and offered a $20 bill to pay. The clerk asked a question and I didn’t understand a word. I asked her to repeat it and thought I caught the word “five”. I decided she wanted to know if I had a smaller bill, and said no. That seemed to be the right answer, as she took the $20 and gave me my change. It was sad though, because I had decided I was going to try in that brief encounter to pass myself off as a native Australian. I figured I could just greet her with a passable “g’day” and then at the end say thanks with an Australian accent and she’d be none the wiser. The blank, dopey look in between probably gave me away, though. It was the second time this week I had that kind of communication problem in making a purchase at a store. In the other incident Roland was with me, and I wound up just looking back and forth between the clerk and Roland as he interpreted for me.

On the other hand, my all-time favorite soft drink now is a flavor called Lemon, Lime & Bitters, made by at least four different Queensland soft drink manufacturers, like we have competing brands of cola in the U.S. I love it.

And my wife and I just took a short walk in the park across the street. I took my camera along and got photos of a giant lizard (maybe two feet long) and several species of bird that are just normal neighborhood birds here but are awfully exotic to me. I missed shots of a couple of other species.

Karen and the kids are about ready to start job hunting, and I’ll be ready to start my job as Customer Service Manager for Trade Alliance on Monday.

We're Here!

Well, our first weekend as residents of Australia is behind us. We had a wonderful dinner with the Hearns on Friday evening featuring leg of lamb with gravy and mint sauce. Saturday morning the kids went horseback riding. On Saturday evening we went “into the city”, which means we went to downtown Brisbane, for Riverfest. It’s an annual event. It featured the most amazing fireworks display I’ve ever seen in my life. Fireworks were fired from five barges in the middle of the river that runs through Brisbane, as well as two bridges and three downtown buildings simultaneously. We saw fireworks spread out like a fan so that some of them were shooting along parallel to the water, barely above it. We saw fireworks “fountains” on the barges and massive white fireworks “waterfalls” streaming down from the bridges. The display began and ended with a fighter jet flying low over the river “dumping” fuel to create a comet tail of fire shooting out behind it, accompanied by a deafening roar. Extraordinarily impressive.

The nucleus of what will become NewStart-RiverCity church is currently just meeting every other Sunday and this was their weekend off, so we spent Sunday at the beach at Surfers Paradise on the Gold Coast south of Brisbane. It was the first time Charlotte or Jake had ever seen a beach, so they had a great time. Their relationships with the Hearn children fell right back into place after nearly four years apart, so that was a great relief.

The one negative note from our first weekend is, unfortunately, a big one. Roland’s dad Colin accompanied us to the beach Sunday and toward the end of our visit to Surfers Paradise he walked from the beach to some shops across the street and, while there, fell and broke his leg. He’s having surgery to put a pin in it today and the doctors assure us he’ll be at least as good as before, but it was very painful for him, and it was hard for us to see such a dear, gracious, gentle man in such pain. A girl who happened to be passing by when he fell stayed with him until we discovered he’d had an accident, which was some time. The ambulance was already there for a few minutes before we saw it and discovered it was for Colin. The girl stayed with him until the ambulance took him away and then exchanged phone numbers with Roland so she could keep up with how he was doing. It was just very, very sweet, and a great relief.

Today we have business details to take care of, like getting started on getting drivers licenses, getting a Tax ID Number so my wages are taxed properly, and getting “visa labels” (whatever that means) in our passports. It’s something the visas and our lawyer say we need to do shortly after arrival.

The weather is perfect, and sitting out on the veranda enjoying a cup of tea together every day with dear old friends is a wonderful privilege. Life is never perfect, but right now it’s very, very good.

Moving from Texas to Australia

The day after tomorrow my wife and I with two of our three children will board a plane at DFW airport to fly from Dallas to Brisbane, Australia. We intend for our oldest son to join us for his Christmas and summer breaks while he finishes his college education, and then perhaps join us permanently in December, 2007 when he graduates.

My younger son has made only a one-hour flight on a plane in his life. My daughter has never been on a plane and neither of them has ever been out of the United States -- or even out of the southwestern United States.

I will work as the customer service manager for an Australian construction industry trade alliance, as my Australian buddy (or "mate", as they say), work toward launching a new church in Brisbane where broken, wounded, defensive, isolated people (which is pretty much all of us) will find healing and love and joy together.

Along the way we'll get to play on Paradise Beach on the Gold Coast, take long walks in the cool rain forests surrounding Brisbane, and enjoy a cup of hot tea on the veranda within sight of an occasional kangaroo or wallaby, or a more expensive cup of tea at a sidewalk cafe on the river in "the city", as they call downtown Brisbane. The first weekend a big fireworks display is planned in the city, and we'll watch that.

We'll work at assimilating ourselves into what is simultaneously somehow both a kindred and an alien culture, with words, phrases, habits, plants and animals not our own, interspersing what is, nevertheless, a very familiar environment shaped by people from the same British tribes and classes that settled and built my own culture in Arkansas and Texas.

We arrive in Brisbane in 3 days, 9 hours and 54 minutes!

Katrina, Part III: What I Felt

I have seen in this past week more literally overwhelming destruction – and more humbling nobility of spirit – than ever before in my life. I have felt more encouraged and affirmed than I can remember being in a long time. By the end of the week it felt like a badge of honor, a mark of distinction, to be able to call myself a human.

It began at the Coast Guard operation in Alexandria, Louisiana. The person in charge there, in certainly the biggest assignment of his life, and one for which he couldn’t possibly be adequately prepared, had been working 20 hours a day for a week, and we civilians had shown up uninvited, offering to help with our amphibious vehicle (called a DUKW, pronounced “duck”). Yet he was as courteous and gracious as he could be. He showed us around the facility, introduced us to someone who could figure out how to plug us in, and bragged on his people, who had also been working 20 hour shifts, and who were also gracious and attentive and helpful. He told us about a girl in the Coast Guard in New Orleans who had just the previous week obtained whatever licensing or credentials are required to do aerial rescues from a helicopter. He said a typical Coast Guard helicopter pilot may do 20 aerial rescues in a career, and this girl had done 70 in her first week after qualifying. So before we got close enough to see the first sign of wind or flood damage, my heart began to swell with admiration for all of the rescue and relief workers.

The sun was rising on Saturday morning as we entered the city of New Orleans, a major port and renowned tourist attraction, a city of a half-million people, the home of the Superdome and the New Orleans Saints NFL football team and the French Quarter and Mardi Gras – the city where the party never stops. The sky was blue, the sun was shining, the temperature was perfect, the roads were clear.

And the great city was empty, abandoned, desolate. We passed mile after mile of highways, homes, shopping centers, hotels, offices, churches and franchised fast-food places without people or traffic. I have seen a great city skyline standing black against a black sky. There was nobody. That was the single eeriest experience of my life. It was like being in some sort of post-apocalyptic movie. I felt the emptiness, the abandonment, the smallness and the weakness and the transience of the greatest human achievements. I felt what hell would be like for me – alone in a world that was built for relationships.

As we roamed the desolate city, I felt the perspective of the looter. No one else was around. No one seemed to own anything or be in charge of anything or responsible for anything or able to provide anything or to care about anything at that location. It was like being the only person left alive after a world-ending nuclear war. The whole material remnant of the “developed” world is now just your unexplored urban jungle for hunting and gathering, which is what you are reduced to in a place that is, for the moment at least, too primitive even for agriculture, much less manufacturing. I could see the signs on the small shops that said things like “We shoot looters” and identify with the person determined to protect at any cost what was left of his property, but for the first time in my life, I could at least imagine what the world looked like to the looter, too.

One of the most remarkable emotional experiences was just the spirit of the workers. We must have seen agencies from 20 states represented. We saw every possible law enforcement and military agency from every possible level of government, as well as countless private organizations like us. It could have been a bureaucratic nightmare, but every leader we encountered, no matter how harried and overworked, was kind and willing to help and be helped. Every one of them offered to share their food and drink (but not their gasoline), and looked for ways to keep structure and coordination intact while still incorporating unexpected offers of help. Every one of them was working as hard as they could to make it work and get the job done. One Louisiana Parks & Wildlife leader snapped dismissively at us when we pulled up and tried to ask a question, but I spoke to him affirmingly and encouragingly and sympathetically for no more than two minutes before he was nearly in tears, talking about the challenges that he faced, offering us food and drink and a place to park our duck. That was probably the first moment in our adventure when I actually felt useful and valuable. I couldn’t captain the boat and I wasn’t a mechanic, but I could reflect to people their own value in a way that made it possible for them to work with us.

We found people at the Crossroads Church of the Nazarene like all the other workers. Their brand new building had sustained damage, but the pastor and a group of Red Cross volunteers formed a bucket brigade-style line and helped us unload 217 cases of Similac like it was a party.

I came close to feeling something less than admiration for the actual people we were trying to help, which is never a good thing. People who don’t want to leave stinking, flooded homes in an abandoned neighborhood without utilities are not apparently normal people. Most of them seemed to be kind of marginal in some way. They were physically sick and weak and frail, or they were a little mentally deficient, or they were just emotionally unstable. They seemed to be totally out of touch with reality. We tended to be in a hurry, trying to reach as many people as possible before sundown. The National Guardsmen and professional Search and Rescue people who directed us were allowing one bag per person and no pets. I’ll never forget the little old lady who came to the boat, and then remembered that she had forgotten her Bible, so we waited for her to go back into her house for her Bible and come back to the boat.

When we picked up one group of 25, they were actively engaged in their situation. They didn’t seem disconnected at all. When Herb asked for a head count, one man immediately jumped up and counted for us. Another told him some of what he needed to know about what was under water, that we were going through or over. Another wrote our names down on a pad for the book she hopes to write someday, and to pray for us. They helped each other sort out their bags when they left the boat for the big helicopters. One chatted with me about where I was from, and about relatives he has in this area.

They were people, like me. For all their differences of accent, skin color and lifestyle, we were linked by an extraordinary circumstance, and I felt what it means to talk about our “fellow men”. We were part of the same extended family, and when push came to shove, we would help each other. In the commonest of people is the spark of the divine. In people for whom it would be easy in other circumstances to feel contempt or incomprehension there is something admirable and likable and akin to our own family and heroes.

I had one emotional experience that I can’t imagine anyone could ever understand who hasn’t been there. We had only experienced the emptiness and desolation of the evacuated New Orleans for two days. For only two days had we had to drive 70 miles to Baton Rouge each day for gasoline and a restaurant and a place to sleep. But when a Domino’s Pizza place opened up on Monday morning, it was like seeing a loved one’s eyes flutter and open when you had thought they were dead. It was shocking and exciting. The only drinks they had were two-liter bottles, and they only had four available toppings: pepperoni, pineapple, jalepeno and olives, so I ordered a two-liter coke and a large thin crust pepperoni, pineapple, jalepeno and olive pizza, and it was very heaven. It wasn’t so much the food that was wonderful, as just the ability to order something, and hear the cash register and sense hope for a returning normality. And then a man walked in and announced to the crowd of customers and employees that a service station down the road at such and such a location actually had gasoline for sale! This crowd of normal, simple people were a victorious community in that moment. Domino’s Pizza, which was never anything special to me until then, will henceforth always represent to me the indomitable human spirit, and the determination to rebuild what is destroyed, and to revive what is mortally wounded, and to regain normality that catastrophe has stolen. Civilization is not normal. It is a phenomenal pinnacle to which humanity claws its way by superhuman effort, and which it maintains at heroic cost. With the help of my own overactive imagination, in a mere two days, I caught a glimpse of that truth.

The most impacting emotion of the whole week, though was an odd mixture of humility and pride. I don’t have any military or governmental affiliation that makes me “official”. I don’t have any practical trade skills that makes me “essential”. I was just tagging along at the last moment, doing whatever I could, lowering and raising a ladder, handing out or loading and unloading boxes of water or formula, rolling a flat tire out of the way. I can’t imagine anyone who had the opportunity that presented itself to me, choosing differently than I chose. But for a week, I was treated like a hero.

Driving down the road with a load of baby formula, we were passed on the left by a white pickup truck from the maintenance department of some local school district, and the driver gave us a thumbs up sign as he passed us. A few minutes later a woman in a sedan passed us on the right, made eye contact with us, and mouthed the words “thank you.” We would stop for gas or a meal in Baton Rouge and someone would hear us talking to each other, or see something on our truck that suggested what we were doing, and – male and female, young and old – they would come up to us, and their eyes would water and their bottom lip would quiver, and they would say with a thick, choked voice “thank you for everything you’re doing. This is our home. You are our heroes.” And we would get to say: “You’re welcome. You’re worth it. Everyone’s just doing what they can.”

We were looking for a way to reduce the number of trips we would need to make to Baton Rouge to get gas, so we asked a customer at a gas pump who had 3 5-gallon gas cans tied on top of her car, where she got them or if she knew where we could get some. She said we’d probably have to go all the way to Lafayette, another hour and a half past Baton Rouge. A couple of minutes later she came back to us and asked us where we were heading. We said we were doing relief work in New Orleans. She said: “My home was destroyed, and you’re going there to help. You take my gas cans. And thank you.” Of course, she refused payment for them.

I have never lived before in a culture of such sincere mutual admiration and gratitude. Surely that’s what the church is supposed to be like, and what heaven will be like. People who were providing us with food and shelter and a shower were thanking us as we were thanking them. The National Guardsman who guided us on the boat, who made it possible for us to do anything useful at all, thank us as we thanked him, for making it possible. And every night that we went back to the Baton Rouge church, we’d find a mint or a piece of candy on “our” bed, with a thank you note – sometimes a printed one from an adult, but usually one written in crayon by a child from a local Christian school. The one I saved and brought home with me is written in red crayon. In a childish scrawl it says:

“Thank you. Thank you so much for coming down here you are so brave. You are risking everything for us and I want to thank you. You will be in my prayes. You will always be blessed by God. I hope you get enough food and rest. Sense you have treated us so well here is a treat for you.

Ryan
Victory Academy” -- and at the bottom it had a cherry-flavored Jolly Rancher candy taped to the note.

I came away from this week feeling grateful for a God who is bigger than the big storm, and grateful that he has made us in his own image, and allowed me the companionship of creatures who are only a little lower than the angels.

Brad Mercer
September 10, 2005

Katrina, Part II: What We Saw

From September 3 through September 8 we were in the area affected by Hurricane Katrina. The first indication that we were approaching something unusual was just the convention center in Alexandria that had been turned into a makeshift Coast Guard command center.

The next thing, that I first noticed probably somewhere in the Alexandria area, although maybe as far north as Shreveport, was the convoys of charter buses heading down to New Orleans to pick up evacuees. We’d see 20 charter buses in a single convoy, and just convoy after convoy of them. Then we started seeing large convoys of military vehicles. We also started noticing smaller convoys of 3 or 4 vehicles from non-military agencies like Parks & Wildlife vehicles, state police from various states, local police from outside Louisiana, county sheriffs and local fire departments and emergency medical technicians and ambulances from all over the country.

I’ve seen a great city still standing but – at least the part we were in – dark and empty.

Then the day of search and rescue began, and emergency vehicles with flashing red and blue lights could be safely ignored because those were the only vehicles there were, and we were all going to the same place. Traffic signals could be safely ignored, because if there was one other vehicle approaching an intersection, no distractions existed to keep us from noticing it a long way off. We turned on the radio and there was no music. There was only talk and news about the hurricane, and New Orleans radio announcers were announcing from Baton Rouge.

Along the gulf coast from the west side of New Orleans to the east side of Biloxi I have seen rows of billboards twisted like the wire twist ties on loaves of bread. By the way, if you’re ever in the market to build a billboard, the ones with big round steel poles seem to hold up a little better than the ones that are supported with steel I-beams. Not much stands up to 150 MPH winds, though. I’ve seen piles of construction debris that used to be buildings, buildings so thoroughly demolished that I couldn’t tell what they used to be.

I’ve seen truckloads of water sitting abandoned at a bottling plant near the Superdome, the trucks themselves apparently washed away from their plant by the storm. I’ve seen small shops emptied, apparently by looters. I’ve seen a hand painted note on the plywood covering the windows of a small shop, saying: “We kill looters” and another sign on a different shop saying “You loot, we shoot.” And I believed them, and at the time, it seemed reasonable. I’ve also seen people casually picking up things that didn’t belong to them and walking off with them, sometimes things that belonged to their rescuers and that would be used to help their neighbors that would be rescued next, but they stole them, and at the time, that seemed reasonable, too.

I saw neighborhoods standing in water up to the window sills, where the shops were all closed and the houses had no electricity or running water, and they’d been like that for a week, and the people sat on their front porches and smiled and waved at us as we went by, assuring us that they were fine and had no desire to leave. They waded waste deep through a toxic water mixed with oil and gasoline and garbage and the strong smell of rotting corpses, but they acted like they weren’t in need, and declined rescue. Is there a sermon illustration in there somewhere?

I’ve discovered that when you’re using an interstate highway onramp as a boat ramp, it’s surprisingly difficult to tell what’s under water. It’s not obvious where the actual streets are. You have to look consciously at the buildings, overpasses, streetlights and so forth to deliberately guess where the streets are. And still, you come unexpectedly upon sudden, deep holes, and you can’t picture in your mind what normal city thing is under the water there. Once, in water that the duck could still drive, rather than boat, through, the back right corner, where I was, suddenly dropped so far that I thought one of our recently rescued victims might fall out of the duck, if the whole vehicle didn’t tip over. It seemed like a sidewalk ought to be there, and it might be something normal and obvious, but I couldn’t think what that hole could be.

I’ve seen giant cargo or tanker ships in the Mississippi River pushed up at a 45 degree angle against the shore. I’ve seen big, fancy yachts tossed completely out of the marina and set down, apparently undamaged, in parking lots and out on the shoulder of the nearby freeway. I’ve seen a marina where boats were tossed together like a child’s toy box. Growing up in tornado alley, I’m used to seeing the relatively narrow swath of utter destruction that a tornado can cause. But this week, I rode through that kind of destruction for hours. Between New Orleans and Biloxi is a forest that now looks like a game of Pickup Sticks. The limbs are stripped bare, and big, strong, healthy trees are snapped near the base like dry twigs.

At Crossroads Church of the Nazarene, east of Biloxi, their brand new building has had the steeple ripped off the roof, and all their parking lot light poles are bent at odd angles or lying on the ground.

And I’ve seen a Domino’s Pizza place on Business Highway 90 in Westwego, Louisiana, be the first business in that area to reopen after the hurricane, and it was good. I’ve seen new life in a dead city, and it was good.

Brad Mercer
September 10, 2005

Katrina, Part I: What We Did

I learned on Thursday afternoon, September 1, 2005, from Herb Parsons, my old college roommate, that he and an associate were taking an amphibious vehicle called a duck (actually DUKW) to New Orleans to do search and rescue. Although Herb had originally understood that we were going at the request of Homeland Security, it turned out that we were going uninvited, at the initiative of the owner of the duck.

I got up at 7am on Friday, September 2, got a few last minute things taken care of, and met Herb at the boat at 10:30am. We were expecting a tractor trailer that would haul the duck. It finally arrived at 4:30pm. While we waited, mechanics continued to double check the duck, and we loaded relief supplies on the duck. We left at 5:30pm. Herb, his associate Max Miller and I rode in Max’s pickup truck, which was hauling Max’s fishing boat, just in case we needed it.

Max is in the Coast Guard Auxiliary, and teaches boating safety under the auspices of the Texas Parks and Wildlife Department. He has a Texas Parks and Wildlife insignia on the doors of his pickup truck. Checkpoints on the outskirts of New Orleans served to keep all but essential personnel out. We hoped Max’s connections to the Coast Guard or Texas Parks and Wildlife would get us in.

We drove from Dallas to Alexandria, where the Coast Guard had set up a command center to coordinate their efforts in New Orleans. The “Incident Commander” I think they called him, graciously directed us to a Lt. Commander, who hooked us up with a Lt. Commander in New Orleans, who we were told was working in St. Bernard Parish at a ferry landing, evacuating people.

When we got to New Orleans, at 6am on Saturday, I’d been up for 23 hours. We wanted to hook up with the Lt. Commander and figure out where we were going to be, what we were going to be doing, and who we were going to be doing it with, before unloading the duck and letting the truck driver go. Our problem was that, although the duck could go anywhere, the tractor-trailer rig that was hauling it, and the pickup truck we were in, couldn’t. In addition, we weren’t familiar with the city, and cell phones weren’t working. So we spent a good bit of time trying to find the ferry landing. This was the only point at which I waded bare-legged in rubber “water socks” through the toxic flood waters. I was trying to see how deep a flooded section of I-10 was, to decide whether the tractor-trailer and pickup could drive through it. When it got up above my knees, we decided the pickup, at least, couldn’t do it, and turned around to find a different route. We finally found a different ferry landing guarded by Coast Guardsmen, who told us the Lt. Commander was at FEMA’s command center, and told us where that was. At FEMA, we unloaded the duck and said goodbye to the truck driver. The Lt. Commander directed us to a staging area that was being managed by someone from Louisiana Parks and Wildlife. On the way we stopped at a shopping center parking lot where the Salvation Army was serving hot meals to area residents, and distributed our relief supplies. At the Parks and Wildlife staging area we found a K9 Search & Rescue Unit who told us they were going out with a National Guardsman to a flooded neighborhood near the French Quarter, and they needed an amphibious vehicle like ours. Finally, at 7pm on Saturday, 36 hours after I got out of my own bed at home, we unrolled our sleeping bags and slept on the duck, under the Louisiana sky.

We got up at 6am Sunday morning, drove the duck to, I believe, the Elysian Fields onramp of Interstate Highway 10, which was the staging area for the search and rescue efforts. The three of us, three members of the K9 team, and a National Guardsmen used the onramp as a boat dock and drove off into the neighborhood, sometimes driving on more or less dry streets, and sometimes boating through deeply flooded streets, to houses that the guardsman was directing us with a two-way radio and a GPS unit. We’d go to houses that had people no one else could get to. Other units were doing the same thing we were doing, but with pickup trucks, hummers and motorized rubber rafts. When the water got too shallow or deep for them, they’d radio the position, and we’d pick the people up.

The first trip out made the whole trip look like it might have been a waste of time. We picked up one person who needed to be on a transport helicopter that was waiting for us, so we had to head back to the freeway with just him, then had a flat on the way. We fixed the flat and went back out again, but we were afraid it would be a short adventure if we rescued one person and had one flat each time. By the end of the day, though, we had rescued 67 people in five trips, and didn’t have another flat. It was nightfall by the time we were done. Some of those 67 people were eager to come with us, and some had to be talked into it. Many people didn’t want to go with us. They just waved us on and said they were fine. Some asked when the next boat was coming.

The trip that felt most like we were really rescuing people was the last trip. We picked up 25 people who had congregated at an elementary school. Each person was allowed to bring one bag with them. Men in the group handed bags and toddlers to me from the side of the duck. I sat them all down, lowered the ladder on the back of the boat, and then helped the people up, some of whom were old or sick. Then we received a report of an old lady trapped in an attic 18 blocks away. We apologized to the 25 people we had, knowing they were tired, some of them sick, all of them eager to get back to the freeway where big helicopters would take them to the New Orleans airport, from where busses would take them to refugee centers in other cities and states. They emphatically agreed, though, that we had to go look for the old lady in the attic. We had two different adjoining addresses for her. One of the K9 guys was a former fireman, so he waded through the toxic waste water (in chest waders) to the two houses and broke into them, but didn’t find any evidence of a live person in an attic. We couldn’t know whether she was already gone, or dead, or we had a bad address. When we got back to the freeway and unloaded our passengers, one of them tried to steal a trauma bag that belonged to the K9 unit, but he put it down and apologized when I stopped him. The others had all been wonderful, though. They were caring and considerate of each other, of us, and of the unknown old lady.

Before we loaded up and left the staging area, we saw a couple of body bags with bodies in them, lying on the shoulder of the highway, around where we were all sitting. We asked around and were assured that the bodies were people who had been brought in by other groups, and not anyone we had brought in.

At some point during the day, Herb called his wife, who called around for us and found that the Baton Rouge First Church of the Nazarene had 160 mattresses in their gym, and could offer us a bed, a hot meal and a shower, all of which sounded wonderful after substituting wet wipes for a bath and power bars for a meal. Military MRE’s (Meals Ready to Eat) had been readily available at the staging area, but I never felt like I had time to eat one, and besides, I felt a little guilty eating them, for some reason.

We slept well at the church and headed back out the next morning, Monday, to a new staging area that I think was at exit 2B on Interstate 610. We first went to the wrong end of 610, and then on our way around to the right end, the duck started running hot and rough and the oil pressure dropped to zero, and it started knocking really badly. I had left my cell phone in Dallas so my wife could take work calls for me, since I’d heard that phone service was intermittent or non-existent in New Orleans. Herb had forgotten his that morning, so we wound up having to borrow a phone from some sort of cop or military person who was directing relief vehicles at an intersection. Max wasn’t with us. He was off getting the duck flat fixed. We didn’t have his phone number, so we had to call Herb’s wife Gini, who got hold of Max and told him where we were stranded, and he came and got us. After a few calls from his cell phone, we eventually decided that we weren’t going to be able to fix the duck, so we had to decide whether to go home or find another mission. We eventually wound up arranging to have a truck come pick the duck up to haul it back home to the Dallas-Fort Worth area and left it parked at a nearby fire station, and headed back to the church in Baton Rouge, 70 miles away.

At the church, a relief organization called CitiHope had deposited a large load of relief supplies, and was working on finding places to deliver them where they were needed. On Tuesday we decided to drive the pickup and fishing boat/trailer loaded with relief supplies to a low rent apartment complex near a marina in hard hit Slidell, on the east side of New Orleans. Herb had a boat docked there, and had been in contact with someone at the marina. He had heard that 25 people had been killed at the apartment complex, and that 42 others were still living there in the damaged buildings without power or running water. We loaded up in Baton Rouge, drove to Slidell, unloaded the supplies at the apartment complex, visited with the people for a while, Herb checked out his boat, and we headed back to Baton Rouge.

On Wednesday, the trucker arrived for the duck and we killed most of the day in New Orleans waiting around for him. We eventually got the duck loaded and headed back to Baton Rouge, where we decided to find a Cajun restaurant. The city had doubled in population over the preceding few days, between evacuees and relief workers, so what should have been 30-40 minutes of driving wound up being three hours, and that pretty much wrapped up Wednesday.

By Thursday morning, Gini had been in contact with Herb again and let him know that Crossroads Church of the Nazarene in Gautier, Mississippi was serving as a staging area for the American Red Cross and Nazarene Disaster Response, and that they needed baby formula, baby food, and medical supplies. CitiHope had baby formula, so we took 217 cases of it to Gautier from Baton Rouge. We got back to the Baton Rouge church by early afternoon, tossed our bags in the back of the pickup, and headed home.

Of course, every time we entered or left New Orleans or a staging area or command center, we felt like we had to hold our breath as we went through the check points, because we weren’t part of a government agency, but we always got through, usually just because they saw Max’s Parks and Wildlife insignia on his truck. Herb’s electric bill for his boat slip served as his proof of residency to get us into the Marina and apartment complex in Slidell.

I got home at 1:30am on Friday, September 09, 2005, got up from bed at 8:30 and spent all day today trying to get caught up on my regular job. I’m tired, still trying to get reoriented as to time and space, which didn’t seem to matter in New Orleans, still strangely exhilarated, a little sore, with a badly sunburned bottom lip, but otherwise, none the worse for wear.

It’s my intention to write two more pieces on our Katrina adventure, one on what we saw and one on what I felt. I expect those to be more interesting than this one – at least to me. But, I’m too tired and sleepy to write them tonight.

Brad Mercer
Friday, September 09, 2005

The Prodigal Son

I get a lot of my entertainment and information now from the internet. I watch funny short videos on a site called "Stupid Videos", listen to my own radio station on LaunchCast, read a humorous Christian magazine parody called Lark News, read news everywhere from CNN to FoxNews to Al Jazeera and talk to other Nazarenes all over the world on NazNet. I read the blogs of a few friends. A blog is like an online journal or diary on a website, so anyone can read it.

But before the blogger, before the TV newscaster, before the radio star, before the first best-selling author, there was the story teller. A great story teller might make up stories of his own, but he could also re-tell the old favorites that had been passed down from one story teller to the next for many generations. And the stories combined entertainment with information. They told the history of the clan, they told how the world was formed and what made the crops grow.

I think I must have gotten in just on the tail end of the age of the storyteller. I lived in Arkansas until I was 11. In Fordyce, Arkansas in the mid-60's when I was in elementary school, we only had one TV station, and all the adults remembered before TV existed at all. So people still knew how to tell stories. They'd tell jokes that lasted five or ten minutes, just long, rambling humorous stories. I really loved the ghost stories, though. We'd sit in the front yard or on the front porch after dark, just before bedtime, and someone would say, "let's tell ghost stories". The best storyteller in the group would always start by telling us that this particular story was true. It really happened to a friend of her father's. The story itself would be interesting and would keep you on the edge of your seat, but the last sentence of the story would take you by surprise and send chills running up and down your spine. As I got a little older, and heard the same basic story told by a half-dozen people, I figured out they weren't really necessarily true, but I still had my favorites, and it was always fun to hear them again.

Jesus was a great story teller in an age of great story tellers. One of his stories has been called the best short story every told. It's not a funny story, or a romance, and nobody dies at the end, but if you read this story or hear someone tell it who can tell it right, there are points in the story where you feel anger, and points where you feel shame, and points where your heart is thrilled and relieved. And you remember the story for the rest of your life, and at one time or another in your life, you relate to every one of the main characters. This is that story. It’s usually called the story of the Prodigal Son. Prodigal means recklessly, extravagantly wasteful. The prodigal son is the wayward child. (Luke 15:11-32, copied and pasted together from different translations). The story says:

A certain man had two sons: The younger said to his father, 'Father, I want right now what's coming to me.' So the father divided the property between them. In those days, the main form of wealth was land. So the son is asking for his share of the land so he can sell it for the cash. But a family’s land meant more than wealth. It was how they maintained their identity and existence as a people. It was vital to pass on your land to your own children, to keep it in the family, the clan, the tribe. All worth and identity resided in the clan. You needed each other to survive. You were valuable because you were a part of this clan. Without the clan, you had no support structure, no identity, no worth, no one to fight for you, no one who had your back. This son is telling his father to drop dead, so he can have his inheritance now. These people also cared deeply about honor and duty. This son is insulting his father, breaking up the homestead, and rejecting the clan. A few days later this younger son packed all his belongings and took a trip to a distant land, and there he wasted all his money on wild living. About the time his money ran out, a great famine swept over the land, and he began to starve. He persuaded a local farmer to hire him to feed his pigs. One final thing this man could do to bring shame to himself, he has now done. These people didn’t eat pork. They considered pigs to be a loathsome, disgusting animal. They wouldn’t touch them. But this young man is now lower than a pig farmer. He’s the pig farmer’s hired hand. He was so hungry he would have eaten the corncobs in the pig slop, but no one would give him anything. Now, here comes the first positive twist in the story. We could pass right over this line without thinking about it, but in this passing phrase, a compliment of enormous power and hope is paid to this hungry, shame-filled young man. The story says: But when he came to himself When he came to himself. All these terrible decisions he’s made, that have reduced him to shame and hunger, unloved and alone and apparently unlovable, these things don’t define him; that’s not who he really is. When he comes to himself, he remembers who he is and whose he is, and where he came from. But when he came to himself he said, 'How many of my father's hired hands have bread enough and to spare, but here I am dying of hunger! Now, in this moment when he comes to himself, his world changes. In this moment when he remembers that he has a father of such love and provision that the least important people back home have more than enough, he finds in that spark of hope, in the middle of his shame and pain, the courage to say: 'I will arise and go to my father, but still he expects that he’s going to have to grovel and beg. His father has every right, and the village will want to try to insist that his father exercise the right to ban him from the village and never acknowledge any obligation by the clan to him again, because he has shamed them and himself. So he prepares a speech to give to his father, in the hopes of at least becoming a higher class of hired farm hand back home, since he knows he can never be called a son again. So he says: I will arise and go to my father, and will say to him, "Father, I have sinned against heaven and before you, I don't deserve to be called your son. Take me on as a hired hand." ' "So he got up and came to his father. Now, stop here. I love words. The first time I was ever paid for work done, I was paid to recite a poem for a neighbor lady who wanted her dinner guests to hear it, when I was seven years old. I love words. Daddy used to read poetry and stories to me before I was old enough to read, and he would talk about the great orators of his childhood, like Franklin Roosevelt and Winston Churchill, and he would imitate their voices and quote their speeches. I discovered in high school, that, although I wasn’t an athlete and I wasn’t rich, and I didn’t have the nerve to ask a girl out, that with the right words, with words alone, I could make them swoon and make their hearts melt. I love well chosen words. I’ve read broadly and deeply of the greatest classic English literature. But I think this next two sentences, which might seem merely “nice”, may be the most beautiful, powerful, eloquent, moving words in the English language. These words turn our world upside down – no, these words finally turn our world rightside up. These words turn a dark, scary, empty room into a surprise birthday party. They turn fear into stunned, astonished joy. They turn death row into pardon and freedom. They turn a criminal and an orphan into a child and an heir. But while he was still a long way off, his father saw him coming. Filled with love and compassion, he ran to his son, embraced him, and kissed him. While he was still a long way off, his father ran to him and hugged him and kissed him. This father knows that the townspeople, if they see the son and reach him first, will perform the ceremony of banishment against this son who disgraced him and them and himself. Now, they have a rule that it is immodest and shameful to show bare legs. They wore robes that go down nearly to the ground, and they take that rule so seriously that they debate about whether it’s okay to hike your robe even when you’re walking through thorns, to keep from being caught in the thorns and getting your robe torn up. But to run in a long robe and sandals, this father has to hike up his robes to keep from tripping over it. But this father embarrasses himself without concern for what anyone else thinks, and he hikes up his robe, exposing his bare calves, and races the town elders to the city gate to reach his son first, so he can embrace him before the town has a chance to condemn him. The son doesn’t get the chance to walk all the way to the father. The father doesn’t stand with crossed arms and contemptuous scowl, waiting for the son to grovel and beg before throwing him a bone or throwing him out. While he was still a long way off, his father saw him coming. Filled with love and compassion, he ran to his son, embraced him, and kissed him. The son started his speech: 'Father, I've sinned against God, I've sinned before you; I don't deserve to be called your son ever again.' But the father wasn't listening. He was calling to the servants, 'Quick. Bring a clean set of clothes and dress him. Put the family ring on his finger and sandals on his feet. Then get a grain-fed heifer and roast it. We're going to feast! We're going to have a wonderful time! My son is here— given up for dead and now alive! Given up for lost and now found!' And they began to have a wonderful time. All this time his older son was out in the field. When the day's work was done he came in. As he approached the house, he heard the music and dancing. Calling over one of the houseboys, he asked what was going on. He told him, 'Your brother came home. Your father has ordered a feast— barbecued beef!— because he has him home safe and sound.' The older brother stalked off in an angry sulk and refused to join in. His father came out and began to plead with him. Now look at that. The younger son arose and went to his father. The father ran to him while he was still a long way off, but at least he was facing in the right direction, and had given some indication that he was ready to receive the father’s love at some level. But this “good” older brother has his back turned to his father, and is choosing to stay outside. Here the father doesn’t even wait for the older son to say “I will arise and go to my father.” The father goes all the way to him, all angry and defensive though he is, and pleads with him. The father pleads with the son. But he answered his father, 'Listen! For all these years I have been working like a slave for you, and I have never disobeyed your command; but have you ever thrown a party for me and my friends? Then this son of yours who has thrown away your money on whores shows up and you go all out with a feast!' Isn’t that something? While the younger son, off in the pig pen, has believed he wasn’t and probably couldn’t be loved because of all the bad things he’s done, the older son, has dutifully, lovelessly followed all the rules, doing everything he was supposed to do, but by his own admission doing them with the mindset of a slave, just obeying commands, neither giving nor receiving love, unloving and believing himself unloved. Whether near or far, both sons have lived as slaves, sure that the other was favored. Then the father said to him, 'Son, you are always with me, and all that is mine is yours. Now, that’s technically, literally true. He’s got two sons, and one has already received his inheritance, so theoretically, when the father dies, the entire remaining estate would be expected to go to the older brother. So the father says all that is mine is yours. You could have barbecued that heifer anytime you wanted. You aren’t a slave; you’re my dear son. All that is mine is yours. But we had to celebrate and rejoice, because this brother of yours was dead and has come to life; he was lost and has been found.'" First believe that you are loved by your father, and then celebrate your brother, rejoice over him, be loved and love.

We have, of course, all at one time or another been the younger son, so crushed by our own pain and our own shame that we think it can never be made right again. We can never really be completely embraced and accepted and trusted again. We can never really hold our heads up again in polite company.

I have to confess to you, though, that I’ve spent most of my life identifying with the older son. I followed all the rules, I didn’t do drugs, I’ve only had sex with one person in my life, I’ve been in church nearly every Sunday since I was four years old. And sometimes I felt invisible, when the younger sons in my life had the dramatic stories to tell, and got all the attention. And I always hated this story in the Bible because the only person who looks like a jerk in the story is me. Somehow it’s the screw-ups who get the hugs and the kisses and the music and the dancing and the big welcome, and nobody even tells me there’s a party, and somehow I’m the only one who has a problem with that. But the father calls him “dear son” and tells him he can freely enjoy everything the father has, both the barbeque beef and the joy in his brother’s return.

Sometimes, I’ve been the younger son, and the father has embraced me and loved me, and drawn me deeper into the circle of his love and his life. And sometimes I’ve been the older son, and the father has embraced me and loved me, and drawn me deeper into the circle of his love and his life.

And the more I let him do that, and allow myself to be loved and to love, the more I allow the father’s words to the younger son to be spoken to me when I’m that younger son, and the more I allow the father’s words to the older son to be spoken to me when I’m the older son, the more it begins to dawn on me that, besides the two sons, there’s one more character in the story that the storyteller calls me to identify with.

He invites me to be like the father. Having learned to receive grace and be a son, like the two brothers, he invites me to go further up and further in, and learn to see like he sees, love like he loves, feel compassion and patience like he feels compassion and patience, celebrate like he celebrates and rejoice like he rejoices. He invites me to experience his joy and his life.

…um…. Yes. Yes. I accept the invitation.